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I hate Tuesdays.
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If you have brains and a heart, show only one or the other,
You will not get credit for either should you show both at once.
- Friedrich Hölderlin
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To cuss or not to cuss.
Recently my pal Jayson got into some trouble over on his blog for using a certain four-letter word that began with the letter F. So much erupted over his choice in diction, that it reminded me of a passage I once read:
On the Use of Dirty Words William F. Buckley, Jr.
I guess I was seven when I first heard the maxim that only people with small vocabulary use "dirty" words. I am 47 and I have just received a communication from a reader delivering that maxim as though he had invented it. The trouble with the cliche is that a) it isn't true; b) it doesn't take into account the need to use the resources of language; and c) the kind of people who use it are almost always engaged in irredentist ventures calculated to make "dirty," words that no longer are, and even some that never were.
The first point is easily disposed of by asking ourselves the question, Did Shakespeare have a good vocabulary? Yes; and he also used, however sparingly, profane and obscene words.
The second point raises the question of whether a certain kind of emotion is readily communicable with the use of other than certain kinds of words. Let us assume the only thing it is safe to assume about the matter, namely that every emotion is experienced by everyone, from the darkest sinner to the most uplifted saint . . . Non-saints, it is my thesis, have a difficult time adopting the manners of saints, and even if they succeed most of the time in suppressing obnoxious words, they will probably not succeed all of the time . . .
I had a reason to reach, a while back, for a word to comment upon a line of argument I considered insufferably sanctimonious. "Crap," I wrote: And the irredentist hoardes descended upon me in all of their fury. I have replied to them that the word in question is define in a current dictionary in several ways. That among these are meaning 2: "nonsense; drivel; Man, don't hand me that crap. 3. a lie; an exaggeration; Bah, you don't believe that crap, do you?" Notwithstanding that the word has these clearly non-scatological uses, there is an Anglo-Saxon earthiness to it which performs for the writer a function altogether different from such a retort as, say, "Flapdoodle."
I'm a discreet cursor, myself -- and have been known to occasionally pepper my language with a few choice words (sorry, Mom). In some instances, a shocking word is necessary to convey your message effectively. I'm not advocating cases of rampant potty-mouths, but I'm not willing to say that you should *never* use these types of words in your discourse.
Recently there was a talk on campus, given to an entire department, where the speaker used the words "pissed off" to describe his reaction to the untimely death of someone he loved. More people were upset at his word choice than at the subject matter he was addressing. That's misdirected, in my opinion. Pissed off described his visceral reaction to the event -- simply substituting "upset" or "angry" would not have been as effective, in this instance.
Are we that Puritanical, and do words hold that much meaning, to completely distract us from the subject at hand? Sometimes, I think people are.
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Tonight, whilst mingling with people at the Worship Freehouse, I met and talked with the wife of one of my professors at University. She was very nice, and seemingly interested in my thesis topic.
After I ranted and raved about the horrors that are Revolve -- she looked at me and said that she thought I could defend my thesis topic tomorrow -- I was that passionate and articulate about it.
Her mouth to God's ears. Please!
If only this whole thesis thing was as simple as sitting down with someone and talking. This whole writing of 100-120 pages issue is what scares the bejeebus outta me. With December around the corner, and less than 20 pages written of the thing -- I'm beginning to feel the suffocating pressures of a time crunch.
Oy.
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What a great weekend I've had. Not too long ago I returned from having coffee with one group of really cool people. Lots of laughing, caffeine, poutine (by some individuals OTHER than myself), and stupid human tricks abounded. I astonished everyone with my balance-two-forks-on-the-tip-of-a-toothpick trick. That's always a crowd pleaser -- and if you're lucky enough, maybe one day I'll teach it to you.
I'm already in the xmas spirit, as you can see my decorated blog. Let me know if the floating snowflakes cause the page to load slower than normal, it seems okay on my end. And if they annoy you, well -- they'll only be up for a month or so. :)
It's going to be December on Wednesday! Unbelieveable.
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Snarkiness aside, I'm off to (another!) turkey dinner this afternoon. My thesis supervisor is throwing us a Thanksgiving/pre-Christmas party at her house. I'm making my famous lattice-top apple pie!
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Pardon this mini-rant.
I'm not exactly sure what gives people the confidence to rail against someone else. Self-righteousness is rampant on the Internet. Maybe the fact that we can hide behind our monitors gives us the confidence to condemn someone else's thoughts, word choice, or personality -- but it's something that gets me riled every time.
I suppose people out there without their own weblog would say that I open myself up to these types of criticisms, just by virtue of me owning and publishing my opinions on the Internet. They may be right, to a certain extent ... but that still shouldn't give the Pharisees (or "irredentist hoardes") I've seen out there the license to jump in a discussion and spout off their self-righteousness -- especially when they've made no attempt at a relationship, besides condemning things that they don't see fit.
There's few things in the world that I despise more than condescension and self-righteousness. It's a turn-off, and usually an indication of insecurity. People that never speak out tend to come out of the woodwork in order to spread the their "wisdom" with others -- and I'm not going to stop my disdain for these individuals -- be it in reference to a weblog, or face to face.
End rant.
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Worship Freehouse is tonight! It should be a fun event -- hopefully I'll see some of you there.
Check out this page for more details.
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What an amazing night!
I suppose you could say this was the culminating event of my Les Miserables experience. I read the unabridged book 12 years ago, as part of my summer reading for my 10th grade English class. From there, I own both play recordings (Broadway and London) -- of which I routinely perform on long road trips.
I know the songs and story so well, I had images already playing in my head whenever I heard the music ... yet it was still neat to see it performed live. Some of the songs were better than I expected, a few weren't as much -- but overall it was a great night for the theatre.
I think I spent half the night sitting forward in my chair, my mouth agape. One, I don't get out much (to the theatre) -- and two, it was great to see this story unfold before me. I wish I could sound like a theatre snob and say it was only "okay," but I'd be lying. It was a great experience, and one of the best presents, ever (thanks, grrrl).
I still hate the Cosette character, and simply adore Valjean. I resisted the urge to sing along, and now have a sudden urge to audition for a traveling Broadway show. I was only slightly weepy at the end -- which I can't tell if it was from the actual ending or just responding to the night's events.
And now that I'm remembering tonight, it makes me want to go read the book. Again.
Ah, the theatre!
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It's almost Les Mis time! Can't wait.
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Ooooh, another 2 minute preview of the upcoming Return of the King extended edition!
And on Sunday, there's going to be a new 6 minute preview released over at Lord of the Rings.net.
I can't wait! This trilogy is really one set of films I love to be lost in. I wouldn't classify myself as a Lord of the Rings geek, exactly -- but I do love the books and films.
I'm looking forward to a marathon viewing in my immediate future. Who's in?
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Welcome, Jayson, to the wonderful world of blogging. He was recently baptized by fire in a rather controverisal (to some) post. Ah well, if you're not offending someone, you're not doing your job.
It reminds me of my Blog War with a rather fundamentalist (and harsh) Catholic priest, back in the day.
Anyway, blog on Jay. Don't let the bastards get ya down.
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Yep, today's Buy Nothing Day -- which means I'm a non-consumer, at least for a day. That means no good-morning Tim Horton's seeped tea, and no vegan soup for lunch. I'm brown-bagging it today.
Last week I mentioned the reasons why I participate every year in this event. No, I don't expect my non-consuming for a day will shut down any sweatshop or that it will increase the ethical labor standards, or that it will save the environment from greenhouse gases.
I do this as an exercise for myself, first of all -- to see how much I spend in a typical day, without even thinking about it. It also reminds me that I'm fortunate enough to live in two countries where I have the luxury of consuming on a day-to-day basis.
So for the dissenters out there -- no, this one day will not grind the economy to a halt, nor will it cause Nike and Gap to cease paying their laborers pennies a day. It will, however, make a difference for me and whoever else chooses to participate. You can save the entire world by your radical acts of social justice -- and I'll do the same, step by step.
I want to be a more responsible and informed consumer. I want my holidays to be more than about buying gifts for my friends and family. If by participating (and contemplating) in one day of non-consumption helps me along this journey of being a better person & global citizen, then so be it.
But I do dare you to go for a day without buying anything. It's harder than you'd think!
(p.s. If you do decide to participate in Buy Nothing Day, let me know how it goes for you in the comments, below -- I'll do the same)
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Awwww. My roommates threw me a surprise turkey (and all the trimmings) dinner!
There's few things better than leftover turkey. Yum.
And now I'll have something to pack for lunch tomorrow! And something for supper. And for lunch the next day ...
Something else to be thankful for!
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School feels different when it's dark outside, and after most everyone has gone home.
I've noticed this quality about it ever since I was a little girl. It always felt strange coming to school on Open House nights, or wandering the hallways of my highschool after performing in the school play. It's much quieter, and it just feels so empty.
Granted, when my office was in the middle of nowhereland (3rd floor north library), the night time hours on campus were not only empty, but a bit creepy as well.
Right now I'm killing time before meeting her for a movie. I was supposed to go to the gym as well, but I'm teaching tomorrow morning and thought I could use the time more efficiently in preparing my lesson.
'Cept with it being so quiet everywhere, I'm having a hard time focusing. Somehow I need more than the hum of the fluorescent lights to motivate me in my studying. Maybe I've come down with a very early case of Spring Fever (I can see the headlines now: "Girl Hit with Case of Spring Fever -- Before Winter Hits!"). I'm mostly prepared for tomorrow, so I think I'm going to pack it in early and grab a smoothie or something before watching the film.
That said, in the middle of lesson-prep, I glanced through the latest issue of bitch magazine and found an interesting website: Imaginary Girlfriends.
From the site:
Tired of your friends and family telling you to get a girlfriend?
Want to make that certain someone a little jealous?
Need a confidence boost? Just feeling lonely sometimes?
With an Imaginary Girlfriend, you can carry on a completely fictitious, yet authentic looking relationship with the girl of your choice.
Browse through our site and choose your favorite girl to see what she can offer as your Imaginary Girlfriend.
Just make up how you met and include any details about yourself that you want your new girlfriend to know. Within days you'll receive personalized love letters by mail, e-mails, photos, special gifts... even phone messages or online chat. Every Imaginary Girlfriend is unique.
The girls are real. The relationship is not. When your time is up you can break up with her for whatever reason you decide, and she'll write you a final letter begging you to take her back. Our service is easy-to-use, lots of fun, and discreet. The privacy of our customers and Imaginary Girlfriends is always protected.
Go ahead, pick out an Imaginary Girlfriend today. We won't tell anyone that it's not real!
I can't tell which is worse -- signing up for an imaginary girlfriend, or signing yourself up to be someone else's imaginary girlfriend.
Nope, this isn't a joke or satire. From what I can tell, it looks legit -- which just means it's sad that there's actually a market for this tripe. Once my mom bought her younger sister a "boyfriend in a box" as a hoax gift -- but now you can sign up for your own imaginary relationship for the low low price of $45 dollars for a 2 month relationship!
Ah well, I suppose it could be worse. I saw a poster for Christian Speed Dating in the hallway today:
[from a "clarification" on its website] The Christian Speed Dating event scheduled for Friday November 26 is not intended as a celebration of worldly ways or a singles dating service. Rather, we want to encourage people to meet new people in a pressure-free environment and to freely enjoy being themselves in a safe environment. All proceeds from this event will be going toward helping students attending the National Student Leadership Conference over Christmas holidays. IVCF apologizes for any misinterpretation of the motives of hosting this event and any offence that this miscommunication may have caused. Thank you.
Oy.
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Canada must be getting to me -- it's hard to believe it's Thanksgiving today.
It's also a reminder of how much I miss my family on days like these. Turkey-day was always a big event in our house -- from our pinecone turkey centerpieces to the cornbread stuffing and my famous lattice-top apple pie.
I guess I'll have to have a turkey sandwich today, in honor of it.
 
Happy Thanksgiving!
I've got so much to be thankful for, and it's nice that I'm reminded (twice a year!) that I am so blessed.
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Pretty Good Day
Loudon Wainwright
I slept through the night, I got through to the dawn
I flipped a switch and the light went on
I got out of bed and I put some clothes on
It’s a pretty good day so far
I turned the tap, there was cold there was hot
I put on my coat to go to the shop
I stepped outside, and I didn’t get shot
It’s a pretty good day so far
I didn’t hear any sirens or explosions
No murders coming in form those heavy guns
No UN tanks, I didn’t see one
It’s a pretty good day so far
No snipers in windows, taking a peak
No people panic, running scared through the streets
I didn’t see any bodies without arms, legs, or feet
It’s a pretty good day
There was plasma bandages and electricity
Food, wood, and water; and the air was smoke free
No camera crews from my TV
It was all such a strange sight to be home
Nobody was frightened, wounded, hungry, or cold
And the children seemed normal, they didn’t look old
It’s a pretty good day so far
I walked through a park, you would not believe it
There in the park, there were a few trees left
And on some branches, there were a few leaves
I slept through the night, got through to the dawn
I flipped the switch and the light went on
I wrote down my dream, I wrote this song
It’s a pretty good day so far
How's that for perspective?
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Whenever I stay at school late on weekdays, every couple of hours I usually allow myself a walk-around-the-hallways or an opportunity to walk downstairs and check my email. I need the break to let my brain recover or to wake myself up from sitting still for so long.
Today while making my rounds, I noticed several Muslim guys in the corner of one hallway -- with their prayer mats and kneeling toward the East. It was sundown, and they were saying their evening prayers. I thought it was really interesting (and special, in an extraordinary type of way) that they'd stop their studies long enough to do this.
I subtly tried to watch them in their spiritual act as I walked back to my office, but I didn't want to distract them from what they were doing.
It got me thinking, though. What is prayer, really? I'm not sure I understand or appreciate it anymore. I know how I *used* to regard it. I can remember going to prayer meetings and anxiously awaiting my turn -- focusing the whole time not on what people around me were saying, but rather what great things I could mention when it finally was my turn.
Um, that's not right. And the more I think about it, the more I remember focusing on how I'd sound and not really communing or communicating with any type of divine force.
Nowadays I'm curious about the point of the whole venture. Do we pray for our benefit, or do we really think that we're going to change God's mind on something? One night we read this parable. It's the story of the persistent widow -- it's short, so I'll quote it (from Luke 18)
Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. He said: "In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, 'Grant me justice against my adversary.' For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, 'Even though I don't fear God or care about men, yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won't eventually wear me out with her coming!' "
And the Lord said, "Listen to what the unjust judge says. And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?" I'm not sure what to make of that. Does it mean if I ask God 19 times, he or she will say NO, but if I ask 20 -- she's contractionally obligated?
Prayer doesn't seem like pestering to me.
Prayer isn't an excuse not to do things for yourself, either. I'm *so* tired of hearing people making excuses, rather than doing something to change their situation.
Prayer isn't an opportunity to sneak in some juicy gossip about a friend, masked as a "prayer request."
Prayer isn't about me having an agenda and checking off a list of things I'd like to acquire.
It isn't a overhyped & marketed formula, either.
Do I pray for my own benefit? Why does it seem like I'm just talking to myself? I'm not sure about it. I've heard it's a discipline, something that takes time to learn and practice. Will I ever have the desire to make it a regular part of my life? I'm not sure.
So while I can appreciate the prayer mats, and the earnest supplications -- I'm not so willing to close my eyes yet and accept it back into my life.
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You Are Fruitcake Soda |
You're gonna get tossed like a drunk midget
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Starting tomorrow (well, today) -- the jig is up. This whole I'm-too-sick-to-do-any-work routine has got to stop if I'm to enjoy myself at all at home for Christmas.
That said, I did enjoy re-watching L'Auberge Espagnole again with the roomies, plus puppy. It's just as funny and touching the second time around as it was the first -- except this time I'm already laughing before the really hilarious part, in anticipation. (incidentially, Jeff, you look incredibly like the main character of the film!) After watching it I always want to pack my bags and head out of the country and off the continent.
BUT -- Must finish thesis first. Must make self sit down and actually work on thesis first. Must find motivation.
I'm just going to have to strand myself at school all day tomorrow, yet again.
Meanwhile, I've got a gazillion tabs open in Firefox of things I want to discuss/blog about. No time, so I'll just post 'em here.
- Hotel Rwanda trailer -- a new movie coming out next month that looks interesting on all sorts of levels.
- Looking to mold your pre-teen into that ultimate consumer? Well, give her a Hello Kitty debit/credit card, and she'll be well on her way! I thought these were a joke -- but they're not.
- NYT article Giving the Law a Religious Perspective (user/password: grrrlmeets) -- An interesting take on my pal Jerry Falwell's Liberty University's School of Law. WWJS? -- who would Jesus sue?
In my opinion, the problem with the church today is what I'll call "Christianity, Inc." (I think others have used this term before, but I don't know who.) Corporate America has seen Christians as a lucrative demographic that is consistent enough in certain beliefs that "formulaic" marketing can be effective (and here I'm not just talking about advertising, but marketing). I believe this trend first started in the mid- to late-80s and is responsible for a lot of the "political" shifts we've seen in church attitudes today. In short (and to simplify it a bunch), I believe that marketers are responsible for creating "Repuvelicals."
Repubvelicals. I like that.
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Awww -- My photogenic roomies!
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Chocolate as cough remedy
It tastes better than cough medicine, and now researchers think it may be better at relieving coughs, too. Dark chocolate may have health benefits to weigh against fears of tooth decay or putting on weight.
A chemical compound, theobromine, which is found in cocoa, has proved more effective at stopping persistent coughing than codeine.
Tests have so far involved only 10 people and larger studies are needed, according to a team from Imperial College and the Royal Brompton and St Bartholomew's hospitals in London and a Hungarian company. They described their work in an online journal published by the Federation of American Societies for Experimental Biology.
Doses used in the tests were equivalent to a 50g bar of dark chocolate, but the researchers said bigger doses might be more effective.
Now that's what I call medicine.
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College offers degree in pastor's wiving
LAFAYETTE — This Fall, King of King's College welcomed its first candidates for a groundbreaking minor in pastor's wiving, the first such degree offered in the country. "After years of grasping in the dark, pastors' wives can now get all the knowledge they need in one place," says professor Helen DuLac, the minor's director.
The college created the degree in response to complaints from female Christian college students that they receive an overabundance of "book learning," but comparatively little practical help for their eventual careers as pastor's wives. "With a normal degree, I may learn a few facts about the first-century church," says Debbie Kraus, 19. "But what good is that when my women's ministry group wants me to lead them in making a cute and clever seasonal craft?"
The minor doesn't require any academic courses.
"To be a pastor's wife you don't have to speak Greek and Hebrew, just be able to listen to it with an expression of sincere interest," says DuLac.
In the chapel on the King of King's campus, twelve well-dressed female students sit on the front pew, their hair perfectly groomed, their nails painted a modest pink. Bibles are open on each lap. Though nobody is preaching and the room is all but empty, they nod and smile in silence, occasionally throwing in a demure "That's right" or "Amen."
Finally, an instructor with a stopwatch yells, "Time's up!"
The students collapse in their seats, rubbing their necks and cheek muscles.
"We have to do that every Sunday?" one asks.
"And Wednesdays, and special events," groans another.
These aspiring ministerial mates are learning how to smile pleasantly in the face of devastating criticism, how to lead women's ministry groups rife with in-fighting and how to worship in demonstrative yet non-offensive ways, appropriate to their church setting.
The professors take pride in "getting real" about pastor's wiving. Heh, the infamous M.R.S. degree! |
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I broke down this morning and finally went to the doctor. Behold, the joys of socialized medicine -- something that allows me such luxuries as free access to medical services. (a concept relatively unheard of, back home)
My regular doctor's office was booked solid, so I had to go to a Medi-clinic (aka "doc-in-a-box"). The result? I had my lungs "tapped," had to run up and down 2 flights of stairs, and then had to breathe into a box of some sort. Turns out I have a viral infection in my lungs, with some bronchial convulsions. Sounds lovely, no?
Unfortunately, there's no medicine that'll help this lovely smoker's cough I've now developed. But I do have an inhaler -- so here's hoping I'll be able to sleep better and not keep my dog up all night with my hacking cough.
At this point I'm really wishing I took the extra hour and had the flu shot last month. Ah well.
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Turn your back on Bush:
The election is over. The fight is not.
Bush's election is bad for the US, and even worse for the rest of the world. But elections are only one part of democracy. We need to think strategically about direct action, learn from a rich history of nonviolent activism, and develop new tactics to take on this administration.
Let's start from the start: Inauguration Day.
On January 20th, 2005, we're calling for a new kind of action. The Bush administration has been successful at keeping protesters away from major events in the last few years by closing off areas around events and using questionable legal strategies to outlaw public dissent. We can use these obstacles to develop new tactics. On Inauguration day, we don't need banners, we don't need signs, we don't need puppets, we just need people.
We're calling on people to attend inauguration without protest signs, shirts or stickers. Once through security and at the procession, at a given signal, we'll all turn our backs on Bush's motorcade and continue through his speech and swearing in. A simple, clear and coherent message. (via Darren)
Tempting -- I still have that flight credit ... I could put it to good use on January 20th.
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Cinema-therapy.
Today I was feeling really gray (literally and metaphorically). I could have stayed home and moped and continued to feel bad -- but instead I chose to flee to the theatre-house.
My viewing victim was the latest Bridget Jones's Diary. Not Oscar quality necessarily, but EXACTLY what this girl needed.
I smiled, laughed, cringed, giggled, sighed, and even snorted. Bridget Jones is definitely a heroine, at least in my book. She's inappropriate, a touch overweight, funny, and socially-motivated. Maybe I like her because of our striking similarities. Anyway, it was nice to see a "normal" looking person on the screen. Granted, the press won't let her live it down that she had to gain weight for this role -- too bad. I personally like Renee with a little meat on her bones than rib-cage skinny (as she was in Chicago).
Anyway, I have some much needed perspective in my life now, after sitting through this film. I'm not going to let things that are out of my control rule my emotions. Things will work out, and if they don't -- I'll get by just fine.
I'm actually cheerful now! Just in time for me to conquer some Rhetorical Theory reading (ugh).
ta ta, poppets.
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Here's a midday funny for all graduate students and/or self-declared geeks:
You know you've been in the library for too long when you gleefully recall a book -- only to realize, seconds later, that YOU are the one who checked it out in the first place.
D'oh.
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Well, I think I found something to do on Saturday.
Eating lunch at my favorite place on campus, I found a flyer promoting a Refugee Conference on campus this weekend. The conference title is "Refugee Realities: Genocide, Displacement, and our Global Responsibility." It sounds really interesting.
From the website:
The 2004 Conference on Refugee Realities will focus on the international refugee crisis, specifically the experiences or "realities" they may be challenged with. Through this conference, we wish to increase community awareness and involvement in refugee issues, at home and abroad.. The organizations involved (click here to read more about who is involved) are looking forward to working closely with the community to make this event a success. This sounds right up my misdirected passions alley. Anyone want to join me?
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It's cold, gray, and yucky outside -- and I'm stuck in the midst of fluorescent lighting and piled up reading/research to do.
So, talk amongst yourselves. I'll give you a topic:
If my dog is part Pug and part Terrier, does that make him a Perrier?
Discuss.
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Success! Moving the crate into my room was just the trick.
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Doggy update: (not that you're curious, but it's a new priority in my life, so I'll be blogging it)
I think I may have figured the sleeping/crate woes. Tonight Colby will be in my room, in his crate. I'm hoping that'll help him (and me) sleep better. And as far as when I'm not at home -- well, I figured a way to close off the kitchen. Now he can play on the kitchen floor, sleep in his crate, and not be cooped up when I'm not at home. And if he has to go to the bathroom, it's easy to clean up. Plus, it's a safe environment and I don't have to worry about him chewing cords, table legs, or falling off the stairs.
I'm working hard at socializing him. This morning he went with me in the car to see Wendy and Mark (the one boy who adores me in Saskatoon -- yeah, he's only 4). Colby didn't get sick, and he wasn't nearly as terrified as he's been in the past. Plus, while at the Coopers', he met and made friends with their black lab Elway. I wish I had my camera and could have taken pictures of the two of them sniffing and hanging out with each other. Too cute!
Housetraining is going really well. Only one accident today, and that was my fault for not taking him out soon enough. Every time I take him outside he uses the bathroom. I think I'm beginning to annoy my roommates by announcing whatever bowel movement Colby accomplishes outside.
Leash training is difficult -- Colby is like his momma, he doesn't like being on a leash (literally or metaphorically). It's a slow process, getting him used to being tethered. I've got one of those nifty retractable leashes, so he's got lots of running space on it.
Someone asked me what was up with naming my dog Colby. I don't have any good story to tell you why -- in fact, it's not nearly as literary as it should be. Ah well. He just looked like a Colby, and that's what he is to me.
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I'm currently reading THREE books, in addition to the material I'm supposed to be reading for my thesis.
This one is from Nickel and Dimed: On (Not) Getting by in America by Barbara Ehrenreich: (this is the author's impressions of a tent-revival in Maine)
The preaching goes on, interrupted with dutiful "amens." It would be nice if someone would read this sad-eyed crowd the Sermon on the Mount, accompanied by a rousing commentary on income inequality and the need for a hike in the minimum wage.
But Jesus makes his appearance here only as a corpse; the living man, the wine-guzzling vagrant and precocious socialist, is never once mentioned, nor anything he ever had to say. Christ crucified rules, and it may be that the true business of modern Christianity is to crucify him again and again so he can never get a word out of his mouth.
I would like to stay around for the speaking in tongues, should it occur, but the mosquitoes, worked into a frenzy by all this talk of His blood, are launching a full-scale attack. I get up to leave, timing my exit for when the preacher's metronomic head movements have him looking the other way, and walk out to search for my car, half expecting to find Jesus out there in the dark, gagged and tethered to a tent pole.
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Okay fellow dog owners -- advice time!
My roommate just woke me up because my dog was whining very loudly in his crate downstairs. (I couldn't hear him because of my fan)
What to do? She let him out of his crate, essentially rewarding his crying. I don't want to have a spoiled dog -- nor one that gets used to being up at 6AM every morning. I can understand the need to take him outside, but I want him to get used to staying in his bed all night.
I stayed awake with him a little longer, but he still wouldn't stop crying when I put him to bed. I eventually had to put him down in the basement. I don't feel too badly about this -- one of my books said that it may be necessary the first few days to do this -- but if anyone else has advice on how to train a puppy, I'll gladly take it.
I feel like a failed mother, and I've only had the dog for 36 hours!
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Less than a week from now, I want you to do something.
Traditionally, the Friday after American Thanksgiving is the busiest shopping day of the year. I should know, I worked in foodservice in a mall -- we called it "Black Friday." People get up at the crack of dawn and spend all day consuming. I've also been one of those consumers -- one face standing in the midst of endless lines in order to save a few dollars.
Every year there's some story reported of a trampling or a fist-fight from attaining whatever the market has deemed the "hot product" of the Christmas season.
So, rather than spending the Friday after a national holiday of thanks with one's family -- many people would rather spend it en masse in the hallowed halls of a mall or Walmart.
This year, don't do it.
Instead, participate by not participating. I'm asking you for a symbolic action, and to participate in Buy Nothing Day. From Adbuster's website:
For 24 hours, millions of people around the world do not participate -- in the doomsday economy, the marketing mind-games, and the frantic consumer-binge that's become our culture. We pause. We make a small choice not to shop. We shrink our footprint and gain some calm. Together we say to Exxon, Nike, Coke and the rest: enough is enough. And we help build this movement to rethink our unsustainable course.
Make an extra effort and don't buy anything for one day. Not only that -- but this Christmas, make a conscious effort to spend your time and energy with the people you love ... and not on buying the ultimate present. If you do spend money, choose a store that uses fair and ethical labor practices.
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I've realized that I'm becoming a caricature of several prominent single-girl profiles. Tonight I cuddled with my dog, ordered crappy Chinese food, and then watched a sappy movie -- all by myself.
I ended the night with a quick romp to McNally's for a book (on puppy training), and am now about to partake in my nightly bubble bath. I was going to catch the Bridget Jones' sequel tonight -- but that just seemed a little too desperate, even for me.
I figure I'm an odd mix of Carrie Bradshaw (sans cute figure, good hair, & enormous shoe collection) and Bridget Jones (sans Hugh Grant character & incessant smoking).
Ah well.
EDIT: Okay, maybe happiness really is a warm puppy. Speaking of which, one of my friends offered me another puppy today -- this time a black lab/german shepard mix! Too bad I've already got one. My hands are full! But if anyone in the Saskatoon area is looking for a canine friend, drop me an email and I'll see about getting you hooked up.
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I'm on the verge of going to sit in my Rhetorical Theory class. Today we're talking about St. Augustine -- how do you say his name? I'm used to St. Au-GUST-in, but my prof here calls him St. Au-gust-TINE.
Here's a segment from the introduction to him in our text, I found especially interesting (written by Wayne Booth):
As Augustine advanced in leadership in the Church, he was forced to return to consideration of the problems of rhetoric that he thought he had left behind. Christianity is one of the world's most rhetorical religions in that it seeks converts. It actively takes the stance that it is important to bring others to accept its principles. The methods of including people in the Church are often rhetorical. Yet Augustine knew firsthand how dishonest rhetoric could be, how shifting in its principles, how unconcerned with truth. So in his work he confronted the question of how absolute truth might use a method that recognizes no absolute truths, how a doctrine of love and kindness could use a technique that seems attuned only to winning, and how a religion concerned with human ends could use a discourse that regarded itself only as a means.
Interesting, no?
UPDATE: Here's two more quotes from Augustine's text, De Doctrina Christiana:
"But we must beware of the man who abounds in eloquent nonsense, and so much more if the hearer is pleased with what is not worth listening to, and thinks that because the speaker is eloquent what he says must be true." Substitute eloquent with confident, and who does this quote remind you of?
Another quote:
"God forbid, then, God forbid that with us the priest should applaud the false prophet, and that God's people should love to have it so. God forbid, I say, that with us there should be such terrible madness! For what shall we do in the end thereof? And assuredly it is preferable, even though what is said should be less intelligible, less pleasing, and less persuasive, that truth be spoken, and that what is just, not what is iniquitous, be listened to with pleasure. But this of course, cannot be, unless what is true and just be expressed with elegance."
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What kind of mom would I be without showing more pictures of my newest addition? Look here and here for more pictures of Colby Jack, taken by his Auntie Angie!
If anyone has any tips on raising a puppy (as far as housetraining and socialization goes) -- feel free to share. I may have to break out and buy a book or two on it.
I'm at school, wishing I was still in bed. Having one cold per month is not fun. Now I have a lovely dry cough. Luckily, there's Buckley's Cough Medicine -- a cough syrup whose motto is "It tastes awful. And it works." I had some of this last night before bed, and it felt like I had a shot of Tequila or Aquavit. In other words, it burned the whole way down. According to one roommate, I'll never use another cough syrup after this one, it works so well. We'll see about that.
My voice is back (somewhat) -- so no more silence for me! I'm afraid my puppy will get used to my Frankenstein voice and not my real one. Jayson had a funny post about my silent treatment the other day. He said: "We had a good time at Alexanders doing the talking thing. (I guess except for becky the silent one, heh, first time in years she had nothing to say, I bet that she came out of the womb arguing human rights violations or talking politics :))." I suppose my misdirected passions sometimes come out whether I want them to or not!
Must go get ready to sit in class -- which means gathering a pack of cough drops and another cup of hot tea.
(I can't believe there's only 2 weeks left of school this term. I've barely begun my thesis, which is to be DONE in 6 months. It's nearly Christmas already!)
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Look at the newest love of my life -- here's Colby.
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Being home sick has its privileges.
I finished watching the last episode of Season 4 of Queer as Folk today. In this episode, a US Customs official gives one couple trouble trying to cross the border back into the States. He wouldn't allow the recently-married gay couple to enter home on a family declaration form.
The mom of one of guys had a great little monologue I wanted to put here.
Customs agent: Did you bring any fruit into the country?
Her: 250 of 'em. On bicycles.
Him: Purpose of your visit to Canada was to... "experience the greatest joy I've ever known seeing my gay son marry his lover."
Her: You got a problem with that [looks at his name badge] Buttz?
Him: As I explained to your son, the government of the United States doesn't recognize gays getting married.
Her: But you do recognize Britney Spears getting loaded and married one night, and having it annulled the next morning? Or two total strangers getting married for a million fucking bucks on television? Now is that the "sanctity of marriage" that you assholes are protecting?
Son: Ma!
Her: Well what is this? Not letting you back into your country, like your marriage doesn't count?! You know, if it's good enough for Canada and the queen of England, it's good enough for Buttz!
[silence. Buttz chortles]
Him: Ma'am? Do you like smoked salmon?
Her: What does that have to do with anything?
Him: Because if you don't shut up, you're going to spend the rest of your life in Nova Scotia! [stamps passport] Next! I'm idealistic enough to think that one day everyone will have the opportunity to be in a relationship with all the legal benefits.
Though I doubt it'll be in these next 4 years.
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I'm no longer on several peoples' forwarding lists. I can think of the reasons why, too. For one, I'm not a big fan of receiving emails that promise me a gift certificate if I forward their advertisement to all my contacts OR those emails that claim some sick cancer-ridden individual wants to have their name in some world records book by having the longest chain-letter on earth...etc.
Usually when I get these types of emails, I go straight here or here and find out the truth.
But occasionally, one or two forwards will slip through -- usually warning me about some hideous virus lurking on my computer or some disastrous secret about a politician. Usually I respond as I did here, by finding out the truth of the matter and then forwarding it to everyone on the list (because most people never use the wonders of BCC).
Apparently I'm no longer on my aunt's email forwarding list. If I recall, that may be because I debunked a rather hysterical forward that asked me to delete a certain file on my computer, for fears that it was virus-ridden (it wasn't).
Yet my sister is still on the privileged forward list. She received an email the other day, and forwarded me a copy to see: dude... look what i just got from aunt b. it's pretty hardcore. i really didn't expect this crap from her! but i figured you'd get a kick out of it at least! why am i so lucky to be on her spam list?!?
I opened up the email -- which of course was in a long string of other names and addresses -- and saw that everyone was forwarding this picture. I don't want to post it here, just because I think it's completely inappropriate. It's one that mocks the death of Yassir Arafat, and positions him in hell, surprised there's no virgins to attend to his every need.
Now I'm not about to digress into a fist fight of words over the Israel/Palestine situation. I don't know nearly enough about it to have an educated position. I do know it's a tricky situation, with each side needlessly killing the other over land. I'm not privileging one side over the other, either. But no matter what your perspective is, I just think it's extremely tacky to gleefully send around an email rejoicing in a world leader's death.
Maybe that's why I wasn't included on this lovely exchange -- because you know I'd have to respond and not idly accept trash being sent in my email box.
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Hey kids! Want to learn about the joys of pursuing a higher education? Then check out the newest toy from Mattel: Grad Student Barbie! Graduate School Barbie comes in two forms: Delusional Master's Barbie (tm) and Ph.D. Masochist Barbie (tm). Every Graduate School Barbie comes with these fun filled features guaranteed to delight and entertain for hours: -
Grad School Barbie comes out of the box with a big grin on her face that turns into a frown after 2 weeks of research or her first advisor meeting (whichever comes first). -
Adorable black circles under her delightfully bloodshot eyes. -
Comes with two outfits: a grubby pair of blue jeans and 5 year old gap T-shirt, and a floppy pair of gray sweatpants with a matching "Go F*!k Yourself" T-shirt. Grad School Barbie talks! Just press the button on her left hand and hear her say such upbeat grad school phrases like, "Yes, Professor, It'll be done by tomorrow" "I'd love to write it all over again" and "Why the hell didn't I just get a job, I could have been making $35,000 a year by now if I had just started working with a Bachelor's. But noooooo, Mom and dad wanted a doctorate in the family. I wish somebody would drop a bomb on the school so that I'd have an excuse to stop working on my degree that's sucking every last drop of life force out of my withered and degraded excuse for a soul..." (9 V lithium batteries sold separately.) Grad School Barbie is anatomically correct to teach kids about the exciting changes that come with pursuing a higher education. Removable panels on Barbie's head and torso allow you to watch as her cerebellum fries to a crispy brown, her heart race 150 beats per minute, and her stomach lining gradually dissolve into nothing. Barbie comes with specially designed eye ducts: just add a little water and watch Grad School Barbie burst into tears at random intervals. Deluxe Grad School Barbie comes with a "Snap" button, bendable arms and legs, and a small vibrating motor. Press the button to watch Barbie crumple into the fetal position and tremble uncontrollably. Fun for the whole family! Other accessories include: -
Grad School Barbie's Fun Fridge (tm) Well stocked with microwave popcorn, Coca-Cola, Healthy Choice Bologna (99% fat free!), and small bottle of Mattel Brand Rum (tm) -
Grad School Barbie's Medicine Cabinet. Comes in Fabulous pink and contains Barbie sized bottles of Advil, St. Johns Wort, Zantac, and your choice of three fun anti-anxiety drugs! (Barbie Medicine Cabinet not available without a prescription) -
Grad School Barbie's Computer Workstation. Comes with miniature obsolete PC (pink of course), rickety desk, and over a dozen miniature Mountain Dew cans to decorate your workstation with (Mountain Dew deposit not included in price, tech support sold separately) Link
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Millions of Evangelicals Return to Political Inaction
“Bush Elected, Work Done,” Say Christian Conservatives
DAYTON, OH – With the presidential election decided in favor of George W. Bush, millions of evangelical Christians have returned to a state of political inertia, experts say. Content that their man will be inaugurated for a second term this January, these believers are gladly disengaging from the political process for another four years.
“Well, that should just about do it,” said Ryan Alcorn, scraping the W'04 bumper sticker off the rear window of his Dodge Caravan. “All this political activity has really left me exhausted. I’m so glad I don’t have to think about it again for a few years.” Tossing a hand-painted sign in the back, he continued, “Now I can go back to holding up my ‘John 3:16’ sign at Buckeyes games instead of the ‘Bush-Cheney’ one.
[...] Christian Pollster George Gallup speculates that this ebb and flow is consistent with the evangelical way. “Look at revivals, crusades, camp meetings,” Gallup noted. “Every couple years evangelicals realize they’ve been heading down the wrong path, and they find some intense way of correcting it. Then they figure they’ve done their part, and they fade out for another few years. Hey, so long as they remember to vote in the presidential years, it’s fine by me.”
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(don't miss the article on Faith-Based National Healthcare in the same issue)
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It's interesting -- now that I don't have a voice, I'm realizing how much I talk. And I'm finding it a little disturbing how amusing my cracking voice is to my surrounding friends.
I just showed the roomies and some friends of theirs my national TV debut -- I was once interviewed on Dateline NBC in 1998. It was all about a teacher of mine who was wrongfully accused and later fired (details here).
It was interesting viewing this case again. Not only do I look really different (as in 40 pounds heavier kind of different) -- but it brought to mind again how unfair and unjust what eventually happened to Ms. Hearn. It also reminded me of my first social justice cause.
I was only 18 when all of this happened. Ms. Hearn was an amazing teacher -- in fact, she's one of the reasons why I want to teach. After all this crap went down, I was -- how you say? -- disillusioned (to say the least). I was on the verge of graduating, and one of my most influential teachers was ousted 3 years before her 30-year retirement -- all because of some policy that the school board wanted to enforce (while conveniently forgetting to follow their own procedures).
But I digress. I was on the verge of graduating high school, and part of the service required me to walk across the stage to receive my diploma from my principal, and then shake the hand of the school board superintendent. This man I had to shake hands with ... well, he was the primary one responsible for my teacher being fired. I did NOT want to acknowledge his monkey-court authority in the least. So, being the idealistic (even at 18!) girl that I was, I told my mom that I was going to bypass this last part of the service and walk straight past him.
Now the principal and all the school authorities had warned us that if we were to do anything out of line during grad ceremonies, we'd be arrested on the spot. My mom knew this too -- so when she heard of my plan to shun the school board bastard, she adamantly refused (and consequently begged) me to follow through on shaking his hand like a good girl. Not only that, but my grandmother was coming down to watch me walk, so that was also going against me. Ultimately, I conceded my mini-protest.
But I still managed to be a bit controversial. First of all, I refused to wear pantyhose to the event. Refused. I hate pantyhose, and I refuse to subject myself to it. Doesn't sound like much of a protest, but my homeroom teacher actually did a quick leg check before we walked. Oh I forget -- I had purple streaks in my hair, too.
Well, later in the ceremony I walked across the stage and accepted my diploma from my principal (who I respected) -- and then walked across to shake the hand of the superintendent (who I did not). As I shook his hand, I looked him in the eye, and ever so quietly asked him, "Do you believe in the Constitution?" and then walked away. As I walked down the steps, he got quite indignant and proceeded to yell to my back "why yes I do young lady" (or something to that effect). What's fun about this whole situation was that he looked like an ass -- because he was the only person that heard my comment, yet the whole stadium saw his overreaction. Yeah, yeah -- I still think I should have just avoided the jerk's handshake, but I still managed to be disruptive enough to satisfy my hostility toward him and his monkey-court of a school board.
Wow, my entries get longer the less I can audibly communicate.
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It's official, I'm getting a puppy! I think we've come up with a name, too. Marc suggested Cordry, after the Daily Show reporter. Unless I hear a different name I like better, I'll go with that one. I'm going to see the pup tomorrow -- we'll see if the name fits the dog.
In other news, I'm nearly a mute at this point. After a day of talking at school & hanging out with various friends, I'm downright squeaky. I'm supposed to teach on Monday, here's hoping that I'll have a voice by then.
I don't handle bodily-imposed vows of silence well.
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Has anyone seen my immune system laying around?
With all these colds I've had recently, I'm beginning to think I misplaced it somewhere.
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Bush Won, the World Lost
by Bob Levin
This, too, shall pass.
The United States will muddle through, as it's muddled through before, because the idea of America, and the system that sustains it, is bigger and braver and more enduring than any single subpar president or collective brain cramp of the populace.
But it's so damn sad anyway. Once again, as Franklin Roosevelt put it, the only thing to fear was fear itself, only this time fear won. Bombast won, the Big Lie won. And of course George W. Bush won, with his staunch certainties in a scary world and his skilled retailing of "moral values" to an increasingly conservative base. Because this is what happened in the U.S. election: with jobs disappearing, deficits running rampant, their kids being killed in Iraq saving the world from nonexistent weapons, Americans rushed to the polls to keep gays from marrying and women from having abortions. The culture war somehow trumped the Iraq war -- evidence of an America not only fiercely divided but in deep denial.
The world, by the way, lost. So did reason, the poor, African-Americans, stem-cell research, the air and water, gun control, the cause of basic competence, the belief that the truth will out.
I thought John Kerry would win and I was wrong. I thought so because the majority of Americans told pollsters they didn't like where the nation was headed. The ship of state was steaming straight for an iceberg, the captain too stubborn to change course -- but in the end the people were too frightened or too distracted to change captains.
This, too, shall pass. Eventually, with who-knows-what consequences.
Yes, these are very sour grapes. This is a sour day, and whoever won was bound to unleash as much wrath as rejoicing. It's time now for Americans to unite and yet it won't be easy behind this president, who divided to conquer. His isn't the America I grew up in, whose values I was weaned on. That America wasn't run for the rich, the corporate, the Christian. It didn't attack other countries without egregious cause, didn't torture foreign prisoners. It was a beacon, not a bully. Of course, that was the idealized America of history textbooks, of John Kennedy's Camelot and Ronald Reagan's "shining city on a hill."
... So this, too, shall pass. Maybe Bush, for all his stay-the-course rhetoric, will discover moderation in his second term. Maybe this man, so unreflective, unrepentant, captive of the neo-cons, blind to what anyone else thinks or the price anyone else pays -- maybe the president who never admits mistakes will, in the post-campaign calm, acknowledge he made some whoppers and try to put things right.
Maybe. We can hope.
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| So I'm onto another book to read at night. The latest literary victim is on loan from a friend who's tired of arguing with me. :) Make that a friend who's willing to hook me up with some intriguing reading material, instead.
The book in question is Finding Faith, by Brian McLaren. It's a book that poses a lot of the questions that have been plaguing me lately -- along with a few answers. I'm not sure that I agree with completely everything that McLaren says, but it's been good to read.
Of course, as I'm reading this book, I'm encountering lots of passages that I want to either mull over or discuss further. I'm only about 100 pages into the book itself, but here are a couple passages that stuck out:
As I'll say again later, I don't think the greatest enemy of monotheism is atheism, agnosticism, polytheism, dualism, or pantheism: It is bad monotheism, monotheism carried out in bad faith. Show me a person who has rejected faith, and nine times in ten I'll show you a person or group nearby who turned them sour with their example of bad faith. The great spiritual need of our world, as well as of so many individuals in it, then (in my opinion), is good faith. I'm surprised he didn't include pluralism in that list. That said, I have to agree with his assertion. Usually the most bitter people out there, in terms of faith, are people who have been wounded by others in their chosen faith. Anyway, I'm sure there's people out there that won't like that statement -- but I think there's truth to be found in it.
Next passage:
Rather, as someone who deeply respects the Bible, I think we do it a disservice by implying that it can do something that no book can. In spiritual matters as in used car sales, exaggerated claims may make a fast sale, but customers are soon dissatisfied, and eventually buyer's remorse sets in, along with a lasting distrust of the salesperson who overpromised and underdelivered. Promising absolute, unassailable certainty, even with the benefit of the Bible or any holy book, seems to be an exaggerated claim. Nail. on. head. Down with "churchisms" phrases such as "inerrant" and "God-breathed." Down with all churchisms in general, I say! I'm just tired of hearing people spout to me these Sunday-school answers without a clue of what they're really saying -- besides something that sounds churchy.
Is my faith any less solid just because I don't believe we're supposed to follow to the letter every word of a book, written thousands of years ago, in cultures far removed from us today? No. If I can get something out of this book -- good. But as a friend once told me, it's time to stop reading the Bible as a rule book -- and time to consider it as a case book of people and their experience with God. It can be just as meaningful, if not more so, when I look at it in this light.
Finally, here's a quote from a fellow Savannah girl, Flannery O'Connor:
Whatever you do anyway, remember that these things are mysteries and that if they were such that we could understand them, they wouldn't be worth understanding. A God you understood would be less than yourself. With that statement, this hoarse girl agrees and is for once speechless. |
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Tonight on PBS -- the documentary Is Walmart Good For America?
FRONTLINE offers two starkly contrasting images: one of empty storefronts in Circleville, Ohio, where the local TV manufacturing plant has closed down; the other--a sea of high rises in the South China boomtown of Shenzhen. The connection between American job losses and soaring Chinese exports? Wal-Mart. For Wal-Mart, China has become the cheapest, most reliable production platform in the world, the source of up to $25 billion in annual imports that help the company deliver everyday low prices to 100 million customers a week. But while some economists credit Wal-Mart's single-minded focus on low costs with helping contain U.S. inflation, others charge that the company is the main force driving the massive overseas shift to China in the production of American consumer goods, resulting in hundreds of thousands of lost jobs and a lower standard of living here at home. Hooray, more ammunition for my anti-Walmart stance. I'll be watching.
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Don't Panic!
The teaser trailer for the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy is here.
... which reminds me, I need to reread these books again. So many movies to look forward to this next spring!
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I'm about 88% sure I'm going to have a puppy in my possession in a couple days. I'm just waiting for my landlords to call and confirm -- one of them said yes, she just has to check with her partner.
So that's exciting. It's a poodle/terrier/pug mix, so it's not a big dog, but it's not quite one of those yippy ones, either.
Now that's left is to come up with a name. I was thinking Tucker, or Stewart (short for Jon, of course).
What suggestions do you have? Help a poor hoarse-y girl come up with a name for her new pup.
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Well, I've gone from having a bedroom voice to having no voice whatsoever. You may not be able to tell on here, but I've been told I talk a lot. So this kind of a cold is the worst.
Why is it that we never notice our throats until they're on fire every time we swallow?
For a good time, click here.
UPDATE: Awww. One sweet friend dropped me off a care package of reading, tasty treats, some distracting entertainment, hot tea and a stuffed animal. He rocks.
In other news, I've had more visits and calls today than on a typical Tuesday. My voice has now progressed to a lovely squeaky Marge Simpson level.
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Ugh. I'm coming down with a cold. On the bright side, my voice is an octave lower and I'm sounding very sexy and gravelly. On the other side, I'm apparently "whiney." I just need an attractive nurse or two to come and cater to my every need. Then I wouldn't be nearly as crabby.
I should technically be reading furiously about ethos. Instead, I just finished watching a particularly disturbing episode of Law and Order: Special Victims Unit. I shouldn't watch shows like that. I get entirely too worked up -- especially when little kids are involved. I have a sudden desire to bury myself under the covers and watch cartoons now.
Of course, the remake of Cape Fear is on. It's got Savannah in it (much like the original film), and since I'm already freaked out, what's one more scary scene or two?
Besides, I see an early bedtime in my immediate future.
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My roommate is now officially a prize winning photographer for Prairies North magazine.
Out of the hundreds of entries for "Saskatchewan Skies" -- she took the prize for first place.
Atta grrrl!
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Some philosophers have objected to all rhetorical practices as unethical because rhetoric seeks endorsement of a partisan opinion rather than the truth. But that objection is specious because it reduces all matters to issues of true and false. The vast majority of human decisions are ones in which there are no true or false answers, only better and worse.
The fascinating aspect of the human world is that we have choices. This is the very ground of our freedom, our morality, and our humanity. Choice always reflects values, beliefs, opinions, desires, and interests; it is inherently partisan activity. Objecting to rhetoric because persuaders seek endorsement of opinions amounts to objecting to the very condition of human existence. This complaint is difficult to sustain because it ignores two important elements: human reality is a social construction, and we constitute it with rhetorical discourse.
Introduction to Rhetorical Theory
by Gerard A. Hauser
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Here's something to give you a heart attack before lunch:
WASHINGTON - Secretary of State Colin Powell and three other Cabinet members have resigned, it was disclosed Monday, escalating the shake-up of President Bush's second-term team. Senior administration officials said national security adviser Condoleezza Rice was most likely to succeed Powell.
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Yikes indeed. Looking at the job she's done as National Security Advisor, I'm terrified to think how'll she will make us look to other countries as our "ambassador of freedom."
I'm suddenly not hungry anymore.
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I was at school in time this morning to watch the sun rise -- if I'm lucky, I'll stay here long enough for it to be dark when I walk home this afternoon.
Something just isn't right about that.
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Ouch.
Falluja the Widow
15 November 2004
"How doth the city sit solitary, that was full of people! how is she become as a widow." -- Lamentations, 1:1. Horrific American press reports from Falluja seem down peppy in comparison to coverage provided by the British press across the political spectrum. From the British Independent, hardly a leftist paper: "A drive through the city revealed a picture of utter destruction, with concrete houses flattened, mosques in ruins, telegraph poles down, power and phone lines hanging slack and rubble and human remains littering the empty streets. The north-west Jolan district, once an insurgent stronghold, looked like a ghost town, the only sound the rumbling of tank tracks." Why is the American press soft-peddling this story? Perhaps because -- despite a penchant for sensationalism -- American media is uncomfortable with narratives of irrevocable consequences, especially when they're of biblical proportion. Link
A cursory look at two US media pages brought up these two headlines:
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I just finished reading Traveling Mercies by Anne Lamott. I tried to delay the finishing of this book as long as I possibly could -- it's just one of those books you don't want to see come to an end. I can probably think of 5 books that I've had that type of reaction ... reading these types of books is both a rare and encompassing experience.
I'm tempted to try to contact the author in some way -- mainly because there were so many parts of this book that I could have sworn she was talking straight to my own experience and wayward journey of faith. It read as if we were sitting in a coffeeshop somewhere, drinking overpriced cappuccinos and talking. I both laughed aloud and cried in different sections of this book. I'm always impressed -- and a little freaked out -- when I find myself reacting aloud when reading. It doesn't happen much, and it makes me feel a little silly to be sitting in a quiet room and suddenly find myself laughing aloud.
Of course, there are so many sections of the book I'd like to quote here -- but somehow I think it would do it injustice to try to encapsulate the experience. I will post one segment that really stood out for me.
The book is divided into little vignettes about her life and experiences she's had -- this one quote follows a story about her worrying about the health of her son.
God: I wish you could have some permanence, a guarantee or two, the unconditional love we all long for. "It would be such skin off your nose?" I demand of God. I never get an answer. But in the meantime I have learned that most of the time, all you have is the moment, and the imperfect love of people.
Yes, exactly.
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Beyond Red and Blue (again)
GEORGE W. BUSH can now claim a clear victory in the popular vote for president, thanks in part to people in and around the city of New York. But the president got no reelection mandate from the citizens of Savannah, Ga. Wait a minute! Doesn't the familiar red-and-blue map prove that the Northeast is indefatigably Democratic and the South irrevocably Republican? Well, when you go beyond red and blue, things in the electorate get more complicated.
Ah ha! See, Savannah isn't Bush country. (phew)
Interesting article with even more interesting conclusions about future political races/implications for either party.
(gracias to the American-politics junkie Jeff for the shout-out)
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Gentle Arms Of Eden
Dave Carter (© 2000)
on a sleepy endless ocean when the world lay in a dream
there was rhythm in the splash and roll, but not a
voice to sing
but the moon shone on the breakers and the morning
warmed the waves
till a single cell did jump and hum for joy as though to say
this is my home, this is my only home
this is the only sacred ground that I have ever known
and should I stray in the dark night alone
rock me goddess in the gentle arms of eden
then the moon shone bright and rounder til the one
turned into two
and the two into ten thousand things, and old things into new
and on some virgin beachhead one lonesome critter crawled
and he looked about and shouted out in his most
astonished drawl
this is my home, this is my only home
this is the only sacred ground that I have ever known
and should I stray in the dark night alone
rock me goddess in the gentle arms of eden
then all the sky was buzzin' and the ground was carpet green
and the wary children of the woods went dancin' in between
and the people sang rejoicing when the field was glad with grain
this song of celebration from their cities on the plain
this is my home, this is my only home
this is the only sacred ground that I have ever known
and should I stray in the dark night alone
rock me goddess in the gentle arms of eden
now there's smoke across the harbor, and there's
factories on the shore
and the world is ill with greed and will and
enterprise of war
but I will lay my burden in the cradle of your grace
and the shining beaches of your love and the sea of
your embrace
this is my home, this is my only home
this is the only sacred ground that I have ever known
and should I stray in the dark night alone
rock me goddess in the gentle arms of eden ...
(thanks to one of my new musical muses Patrick for sending this song my way)
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Looks like I'm 66% Bridget Jones.
You probably hate to admit it, but you're a lot like Bridget, aren't you? You have nights out that you can't remember past 9pm and still chuck up on the way home after drinking expensive wine you can't afford. You then proceed to attempt to seduce the cab driver/your partner/your husband before falling asleep ... still wearing big pants. How Bridget are You? (via Janine)
My life isn't nearly as glamourous as Bridget's, though I've had my share of embarrassing moments, nights of cheesy 80's music and red wine, and my own personal collection of large knickers.
Of course, the sequel to the film isn't in Saskatoon yet. Whenever it does appear, I'll make an appearance of my own.
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I don't pine much, but after catching the sneak preview of Finding Neverland, I have this sudden desire to read Peter Pan -- or rent another Johnny Depp movie.
That said, it is a good film -- lots of imagination and magic, cute little kids, and plenty of sappy-ness to go around (with an 81% rating at Rotten Tomatoes). I took two of my favorite girlfriends to it, and we weren't disappointed in the least. It was a fun way to spend a Saturday night -- far far away from the stack of books and articles that are screaming to be read and annotated. Oy.
There's also some interesting trivia about the movie and the process of filming it.
Free geeky tip of the day: To find interesting cocktail party talk, go to IMDB and look up your favorite film. There's usually a whole pageful of trivia that accompanies it that is sure to win over even your greatest conversation critics.
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- Who's up for some green creme-filled Twinkies? These look seriously gross. The reviewer said that the consistency of the creme looked (but not tasted) like wasabi. Now there's an idea! Wasabi twinkies!
- Just to prove to everyone that I'm fair and balanced some of the time, check out this pathetic attempt of conservative retaliation of another popular website: I give you -- We're not sorry. Wait, that sounded sarcastic, didn't it? Oh well.
- and finally, the results for 2004 American Movie President Election are in. No surprise, the ideologue Andrew Shepherd ("I'm Andrew Shepherd, and I AM the President!") didn't win. D'oh.
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| Fat bottomed grrrls make the advertising world go 'round... |
NEW YORK (Reuters) - J.Lo and Beyonce can take another bow. The booty-shaking stars have shaped the newest generation of mannequins, with hundreds of well-rounded plastic backsides appearing in shop windows across New York.
Bootylicious figures clad in tight low-rise jeans have spilled from the city's street fashion stores into more established labels.
"It's absolutely the trend," said Dwight Critchfield, creative director for mannequin firm Goldsmith.
"These mannequins look great, and there is a real sex appeal about them."
The recent pop culture fixation on large bottoms has been around since at least 1992, when rapper Sir Mix-a-Lot scored a hit with "Baby Got Back."
But some credit the recent booty shakin' efforts of shapely stars Jennifer Lopez and Beyonce for the fresh emphasis on bigger and rounder posteriors, coupled with the fashion explosion of the Brazilian-style low-rise jeans.
"J.Lo was the first to stress that women shouldn't be afraid to show their curves, and the popularity of rap made that shape more acceptable," said Critchfield. "And it is about these low-riding jeans looking good on a sexy, tight fit."
The company launched a "Sex" mannequin with "a larger booty and body" tailored for fashion label Express and for stores carrying lower-end trend clothing, said Critchfield.
On the juniors' floor of Macy's in Manhattan, Guess jeans and streetwear label EckoRed display jeans on a fuller rear-end bottom-half mannequin, known as a pants form, opposite a large poster of J.Lo and her clothing label, while a DJ mixes hip hop and reggae to teen and 20-something shoppers.
EckoRed launched the new mannequin -- called the J.Lo butt form -- at the store almost two years ago and sales have since tripled.
"It is a serious sociological trend that is positive for retailers and customers in that the tyranny of the undernourished perfect model is over," said Rich Rollison of Lifestyle Forms and Display, which designed the pants form mannequin.
Other companies also are developing more realistic mannequins with larger posteriors in maternity and plus sizes.
U.S. label Lane Bryant, which caters to plus sizes 14 to 28, is launching a more voluptuous full-body mannequin across its 250 stores after a successful test run in New York.
"It originated from urban ethnic street wear, but it has transcended that," Rollison said. "Now you are going to see it projected in more urban markets and it will get bigger."
Speaking for all of us grrrls with a largerish booty to haul, hooray for this! Now if someone can just explain to me why some mannequins have nipples -- I'd be set.
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Tonight I went to possibly the most wholesome concert I've attended yet in Saskatoon. I saw the accapella group/boy band Hoja. A friend of mine manages this group, and I was able to meet up with some old friends in catching their act at the Broadway tonight.
It was a fun show -- granted, it was no Ron Sexsmith or Hawksley Workman* -- but it was not a bad way to spend a Friday night. Who knew OutKast or The Eurythmics could be sung without any instruments?
*who once called me "cute" ;)
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She succumbs to peer pressure:
My del.icio.us links page. Pretty neat lil' web tool to put up all those links I don't have time to blog.
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Ang and I went to the Remembrance Day ceremonies at the university Memorial Gates this afternoon. It was an inter-faith service -- simple, yet powerful. I think I've decided that I'm going to celebrate (for lack of a better word) this day from now on.
In the service, I even said a prayer for my president. It went something like this: "God, please give wisdom to the leaders of my country and help us to get out of this horrible situation we've put ourselves into. I know you don't have much to work with -- but you are God, after all."
Pictures of the service here and pictures of the actual Flanders field here.
Too often in our society today are we detached from the influence of war. We can sit back on our padded couches and watch on CNN the glowing green infrared images of the bombing of some middle-eastern country -- and be amazed at the "precision" of such "shock-and-awe" campaigns. What does this say about us? What does it say that we have such catch phrases for war -- or that we allow ourselves to be fooled into thinking that these bombings can be "precise?"
We are lucky. We don't have to worry about walking outside our door and being a casualty of crossfire. We're not living under martial law, in an effort to secure our "freedom."
I'm in the midst of re-watching The Fog of War: Eleven Lessons from the Life of Robert McNamera. If you haven't taken the time to watch this film, do it today. I wish I could make some people in the Bush administration sit and watch this.
These are the 11 lessons discussed in the documentary:
- Empathize with your enemy.
- Rationality will not save us.
- There's something beyond one's self.
- Maximize efficiency.
- Proportionality should be a guideline in war.
- Get the data.
- Belief and seeing are both often wrong.
- Be prepared to reexamine your reasoning.
- In order to do good, you may have to engage in evil.
- Never say never.
- You can't change human nature.
The candor of McNamera is amazing -- anyone who can look back on 85 years of life and admit the wrong turns and decisions he's made is admirable. Despite his errors and decisions he's made that have cost the lives of thousands -- I think history will look on him differently because of the courage he's shown in making this documentary.
Twenty, thirty years from now -- I wonder what sorts of documentaries will be made about the events and leadership of today? I'm almost afraid to ask.
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Futility Move him into the sun-
Gently its touch awoke him once,
At home, whispering of fields unsown.
Always it woke him, even in France,
Until this morning and this snow.
If anything might rouse him now
The kind old sun will know.
Think how it wakes the seeds-
Woke once the clays of a cold star.
Are limbs, so dear-achieved, are sides
Full-nerved, still warm, too hard to stir?
Was it for this the clay grew tall?
-O what made fatuous sunbeams toil
To break earth's sleep at all?
-- by Wilfred Owen, written right before he died in World War I, 1917.
Faces of the Fallen.
Remembrance Day (or Veteran's Day) has never been a big holiday for me. If anything, the only way I knew it was a holiday was noticing the mail wasn't delivered and that the bank was closed.
Up here, it's a different story. About 3 weeks before November 11, little red poppies start appearing on peoples' jackets and lapels. When the actual day appears, it's a holiday that people take off -- and attend services to remember the fallen soldiers.
I've never gone to a service before, but I think I'm going to change that, tomorrow. I've railed against the war for so long now, that I think it's time I sat back and remembered those who gave their lives for my freedom -- as well as those who are dying every day for a war that should never have been fought in the first place.
I think I'll also pray for peace.
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Minor catastrophe last night. (I just love using "minor" and "catastrophe" in the same sentence)
While I was in the midst of grading papers, one of our living room windows collapsed on the INSIDE of our house. It was the most bizarre thing -- I'm marking someone's resume one minute, the next, our window is on our living room floor. No glass broke, and we somehow wrangled it back into place -- but I spent most of last night convinced someone was trying to break in.
I think it was the prairie wind that did the window in, ultimately -- but we need to get it fixed ASAP before it gets any colder, and so I can sleep peacefully at night knowing my house isn't collapsing around my feet.
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I meant to mention this the other day:
Sask. court approves same-sex marriage
SASKATOON - A judge in Saskatoon has ruled that refusing to grant same-sex couples a marriage licence violates their charter rights under the Constitution.
With Friday's ruling, Saskatchewan becomes the seventh jurisdiction in Canada to allow gays and lesbians to legally marry.
In a five-page ruling, Justice Donna Wilson decided that the traditional definition of marriage discriminates against gay couples.
"The common-law definition of marriage for civil purposes is declared to be 'the lawful union of two persons to the exclusion of all others,'' " Wilson wrote. She made the decision after hearing from five gay and lesbian couples who were denied marriage licences in the province. Neither the provincial nor the federal government contested their application to have the definition changed. Compare that to the 11 states that banned it a week ago.
This is a non-issue for me. If the state is going to release marriage licenses, then it should *not* be restricted to any type of restriction -- be it "santity of marriage" or homophobia or just "hate the sin, love the sinner" type of politics. Otherwise, I say that we change the government to release civil union licenses, and take marriage completely out of the hands of the government, if it really is a "religious institution."
Good discussion going on at Jordon's. I just had to quote this comment, by John Campea:
When are people within the sealed box known as "the church" going to realize that Canada and the US are NOT CHRISTIAN NATIONS!
God isn't going to pour out his wrath because of a secular government in a secular nation legalizing Gay Marriages.
He may pour out his wrath for a church that has become more political than spiritual.
He may pour for a church that endorses war and the killing and murdering of creatures made in God's image.
He may for a church that spends 96.3% of it's money on Church buildings, facilities and staff and only 1.2% of it's income on the poor and needy (the VAST majority of what Jesus talked about when referring to money).
God poured out wrath on his OWN people Israel because he loved his children. Right now his "children" are collectively a bunch of snotty nosed loud mouth brats that need a spanking from daddy.
Ouch. How's that for a non-Willow Creek mentality?
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Mushaboom
Leslie Feist
Helping the kids out of their coats
But wait the babies haven't been born
Unpacking the bags and setting up
And planting lilacs and buttercups
But in the meantime I've got it hard
Second floor living without a yard
It may be years until the day
My dreams will match up with my pay
Old dirt road Knee deep snow
Watching the fire as we grow old
I got a man to stick it out
And make a home from a rented house
And we'll collect the moments one by one
I guess that's how the future's done
How many acres how much light
Tucked in the woods and out of sight
Talk to the neighbours and tip my cap
On a little road barely on the map
Old dirt road Knee deep snow
Watching the fire as we grow old
Old dirt road Rambling rose
Watching the fire as we grow well I'm sold |
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Looks to be a blast, I'll be there.
(there's no good transition from Sex with Sue to this!) :)
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So, in the midst of my scurrying about at school today, I noticed that there's a special speaker coming to campus on November 25th.
If you've seen her show, then she needs no introduction. Why, it's Sue from the Talk Sex with Sue show! If you've ever watched Canadian late night TV -- or Oxygen, for that matter -- you'd recognize this grandmotherly grin. It's a bit of a cult favorite up here, though I've only watched bits and pieces of her show.
I don't know what is worse -- listening to a grandmother talk about sex, or watching her display various toys and tell of her experiences with them. [shudder]
Anyway, she's coming to school at the end of the month, and part of me would be curious to hear what she'd have to say. It would definitely be entertaining (and only slightly horrifying) -- but I don't know if it would be worth the 15 bucks for a ticket ... especially if I can turn on her TV show and have the same type of experience.
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How to charm me: Treat me to a bowl of the vegan soup-of-the-day from the STM cafeteria (and a cookie!).
How to annoy me: Remind me that it's only Tuesday, and I'm already suffocating in schoolwork and research to be done ... OR ask me how my thesis is coming (it's not, thus far).
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The President is a "saved" Christian (saved from alcohol, drugs and financial and political failure) and never misses a chance to profess his fealty, not to the man-made Constitution, but to Jesus Christ. His Attorney-General, responsible for defending the separation of church and state, composes and performs gospel songs and invites his subordinates to morning prayers in the Justice Department.
Meanwhile, John Kerry, the quasi-secular Catholic, made damn sure he was photographed with the proper forehead smudge on Ash Wednesday. Threatened by Catholic priests furious with his defence of abortion rights, he tried desperately to outdo Mr. Bush in his declarations of religious faith.
In the final presidential debate, Mr. Bush stated that "God wants everybody to be free" and "in Afghanistan, I believe that the freedom there is a gift from the Almighty." But Mr. Kerry, instead of simply affirming Article 6 and the First Amendment, upped the ante: "Everything is a gift from the Almighty." More recently, in a speech in Fort Lauderdale, he employed the word "faith" 11 times, while genuflecting to the enemies of liberty, those "great preachers and educators who taught the founders of our nation to believe that we could create a great and shining City on a Hill here in America."
Thus is a religious qualification for public servants, banned by the Constitution, in effect established.
Ironically, Mr. Bush outran the demons of his past on Tuesday, managing to live down the drunk-driving conviction that cost him votes in 2000. Mr. Kerry, no matter how devout he tried to appear, could not live down his pro-choice position and what was perceived as his excessive tolerance for homosexuals.
Mr. Kerry's reading of the Bible emphasizes Jesus's admonitions about tolerance and love. The President's political message implies that he worships God's power to smite, rather than Christ's generosity, and that he loves the money changers more than he loves his neighbour.
But the gospel according to Bush has carried the day. As a consequence, I fear that one of America's principal constitutional jewels has been permanently defaced. God help us.
"In God They Trust"
op-ed from The Globe and Mail
by John MacArthur (publisher of Harper's)
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From a mailing list I'm a part of:
Don't know about you guys...but the reality of Fallujah having the hell bombed out of it today is eerie.
I keep thinking of the Warsaw Ghetto uprising.
Here are some quotes from another "Christian" leader:
"We are all proud that through God's powerful aid, we have become once more
true Germans." -Adolf Hitler (1889-1945)
"The greatness of every mighty organization embodying an idea in this world
lies in the religious fanaticism and intolerance with which, fanatically
convinced of its own right, it intolerantly imposes its will against all
others." -Adolf Hitler (Mein Kampf)
"Thus inwardly armed with confidence in God and the unshakable stupidity of
the voting citizenry, the politicians can begin the fight for the 'remaking'
of the Reich as they call it." -Adolf Hitler (Mein Kampf)
Anyone who says Hitler was a pagan or an atheist has not read any original
documents and does not like to face reality. (http://www.nobeliefs.com/hitler.htm)
Strong words -- but sadly, some similiarities to today? What do you think? It's interesting that this topic/comparison came up, especially with Gary and Josh's discussion going on in the comments below.
I'll be thinking about this all day -- it's one way to wake up.
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Lately Sunday nights leave me with my head hurting. That's the night a bunch of us get together to eat and talk about spiritual stuff. Well, some people talk, and there's some in the group that seem to contradict what's being said or ask questions that don't really have answers. Can you guess which group I belong to?
There's so much I have questions about. For every semi-answer I have, there's a score of questions to follow. If anything, I probably come across as obstinate or just plain contrary. Granted, I do enjoy a certain level of obstancy in my life -- in fact, it could be part of my appeal! But the more I talk about these types of things with my friends, the more I feel like I'm a sort of spiritual nomad. I'm not comfortable with any particular complete set of beliefs, so I take a little bit from what I find applicable, and move on with my life.
It leaves me wondering about the whole desire we, as humans, have for religion or spirituality or connection with the Divine. Why do we have this? Is it culturally conditioned, or is it an inherent part of us? I don't know.
Whenever we do feel "connected" to God -- what is that all about? Is it a true feeling, or are we just feeling something what we want to feel? Looking back at my past, I can see different examples when I felt "connected" -- and so much of it was choreographed by another human. Be it summer camps, youth conventions, building fund drives, altar calls, whatever -- all of that was constructed with one purpose in mind, and I always fell right into the role that was laid out so carefully for me. Looking back on those experiences, I wonder how true were they? Sure, I felt all connected at the time -- but as soon as I got back home, real life happened, and those experiences faded away until the next big choreographed event.
Now I'm not at all attempting to diminish someone else's experiences -- that's not the point of this particular rambling of mine. It's just something that is on my mind and heart right now. I wonder if it's possible to find God when you're not expressly looking for him or her. It's easy to see things in your life and either attribute the good to God's providence and the bad to Satan's temptations. But can God appear when I'm not searching for the appearances, specifically? I wonder.
And with these heretical thoughts, I should call it a night.
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For a good time, go read the comments inspired by this post:
friendly
Americans have been complaining lately that Canadians aren’t as friendly as we used to be, we’re not as friendly. Problem is, when you think about the words American and friendly in a sentence it’s usually followed by the word fire.
Lotsa interesting comments going on, including this one by a "yankee Michelle":
My family is Canadian. I am proud to be an American. I’m proud to be a citizen of the greatest country in the world, and I’m getting really fed up with hearing all the criticism of President Bush and on the war in Iraq. I would not have wanted to be in the President’s shoes on the morning of September 11, 2001. I couldn’t have done a better job than he has in the past 4 years, and I know that none of you could have either. I’m not sure why the condition of America’s government is of such concern to Canadians. I don’t even know who your Prime Minister is, and to be honest, I don’t really care. I think his name might be Paul something. Really though, it doesn’t matter. I don’t go around pointing fingers at Canada and everything I disagree with about your country. I’m proud to have a President who seeks God’s face in the day-to-day decisions. His strength of character is inspiring. Yikes.
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"Just the two of us"
Which Strange Little Girl would you be?
You're very mothering and kind to those in your life, particularly children. You would do just about anything to ensure the happiness of those around you, including sacrificing your own life. Your one flaw however, is that you believe too much in your ability to change people, which leads to you being caught up in possibly dangerous situations (both emotionally and physically). You are always there when people need you. You have a tendency to blame yourself for everything that goes wrong, though - the whole world is not your fault! Try to put blame where it belongs, and give yourself some of your own nurturing care. "There's a place called heaven and a place called hell"
Ooooh, a Tori Amos quiz! Thanks to Al, for sending it my way.
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Over the past few days, I've had several friends pull me aside and ask me if I'm alright. They all know how invested I was in the election down South -- I suppose you know this too, considering the number of posts that have been politically motivated lately.
I wish that I could say that I'm just fine and over my disappointment of another four years of neo-conservatism. But I'm not. I've moved past my mourning period and now I'm just upset. Scrolling through the headlines at Yahoo News today, maybe you'll get a better idea why:
Iraqis declare 60-day state of emergencyBAGHDAD, Iraq - The Iraqi government declared a 60-day state of emergency throughout most of the country Sunday, paving the way for an all-out assault on the guerrilla sanctuary of Fallujah. Militants dramatically escalated attacks, killing at least 30 people, including two Americans.
Ground Zero Suicide Driven by Election
NEW YORK - A 25-year-old man from Georgia who was apparently distraught over President Bush's re-election shot and killed himself at ground zero. Andrew Veal's body was found Saturday morning inside the off-limits site, said Steve Coleman, a spokesman for the Port Authority of New York and New Jersey. A shotgun was found nearby, but no suicide note was found, Coleman said.
Bush to seek gay marriage ban
WASHINGTON (Reuters) - President Bush will renew a quest in his second term for a constitutional amendment to ban same-sex marriage as essential to a "hopeful and decent" society, his top political aide said on Sunday. US moves to a conservative era
All of which culminates with Democrats [sliding] into slough of despondency:
Seasoned Democrats are hardly strangers to being out-manoeuvred or out-gunned by the Republican election machine.
But the heartache John Kerry's defeat inflicted on his supporters was especially crippling given the belief that, this time around, they had more than held their own in a particularly bitter campaign.
"We'll admit to being heartbroken. ... It's a dark day," said Eli Pariser, executive director of MoveOn, the political action committee for the pro-Kerry grassroots lobby group MoveOn.org.
"I'm devastated," said Kurt Mangel, a Democrat in his 40s, who became actively involved for the first time in this election, campaigning for months in his home state of Pennsylvania.
"There's no anger; I just feel heartbroken," Mangel said. "I don't fear so much for myself, because I can go to Canada, but for my country and this 200-and-some-year-old dream that has worked so magnificently.
So I'm not alone in these feelings, at least. My friend LT has a good post on responses to most Bush supporters' claims. He's more articulate on the subject then I can be, especially at this point. I just don't want my country to be a theocracy -- is that too much to ask?
This is me hoping that these next four years will show my President will actually following some of the moral codes he so boldly professes.
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Last night was fun. There's nothing like having a roomful of women to set you right in the world. All that estrogen is invigorating! Plus I loved having the opportunity to show Ang how much she is loved! We must have had 20 people in our house -- and if you've been here, you know that is quite the feat.
We played a couple of games, ate so much good food (of which we have leftovers, yay), and Ang got some really neat presents. I had her terrified for most of the night -- she was afraid that she'd be horribly embarrassed in front of her grandmas. Of course, I'd never do anything like that, but it was fun to watch her squirm regardless. Besides, what kind of friend would I be if she didn't have anything to look forward to? The worst thing she had to endure was some furry handcuffs and some massage oils.
While Ang was opening her presents, I had Laura record her responses to each one. Tradition has it that whatever the bride says when opening her shower gifts will be her response to her wedding night. What Laura recorded was pretty funny (and applicable?):
"I can handle that"
"Wow, there's a lot there"
"It's okay, it can be tight"
"Everytime I see one, I think of the Rocky Horror Picture Show"
"That looks like fun"
"I don't think I'd wear that for a long period of time"
"Wow. It's getting hot in here"
"I've heard about those"
"Everyone is going to eat it"
"Well, that's not too bad -- it has the potential to get worse"
"I remember this -- Rock on!"
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It was a success. And yes, those are candy necklaces and condoms pinned to Ang. This was for the post-shower dancing/fund raising at a disgusting nightclub we went to (it's always a bad sign if you have to take a shower AFTER coming home again).
Is it me, or does my hair look especially orange tonight? Hmmm.
More pictures here.
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Tonight I'm a hostess with the most-ess.
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The Maker
Daniel Lanois
Oh, Oh Deep water
Black, and cold like the night
I stand with arms wide open
I've run a twisted mile
I'm a stranger
in the eyes of the maker
I could not see
for fog in my eyes
I could not feel
for the fear in my life
From across the great divide
In the distance i saw a light
Jean baptiste
walking to me with the maker
My body is bent and broken
by long and dangerous leaps
I can't work the fields of abraham
and turn my head away
I'm not a stranger
in the eyes of the maker
Brother john
Have you seen the homeless daughters
standing there
with broken wings
I have seen the flaming swords
there over east of eden
burning in the eyes of the maker
burning in the eyes of the maker
burning in the eyes of the maker
burning in the eyes of the maker
oh river rise from your sleep |
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I really need to stop talking about politics. I get entirely too worked up in the process of either talking to someone who supports Bush -- or someone who is just rationally trying to consider his administration. The stakes for me are just too high to give his administration any type of credit, especially at this point. But I don't think it's going to get any easier, over these next four years.
And just so you'll get some real perspective on the news -- here's something that'll give you sweet dreams: Route 360 Gets Chocolate Coating
A tractor trailer carrying 45,000 pounds of liquid chocolate separated and overturned on I-390 North in Livingston County around 5:00 p.m. Thursday. There were no serious injuries, but the accident created a river of chocolate that stopped traffic for over six hours. Now there's one clean-up effort I'd volunteer for. (via db)
g'night
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Read me
... and be scared for my country and/or wonder about that alleged 3%.
Conspiracy theory? I wish. Anyone else catching the irony of the "freedom" spreaders of God's earth exhibiting very un-democratic values?
(via Gary)
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Deciding who is the trustworthy recipient of a secret or an honor, deciding who is worthy of the offer (or the acceptance) of a marriage proposal, deciding how to rear children and when or if they should be punished for wrong-doing (not to mention deciding what constitutes wrongdoing), or merely deciding whether to agree with the movie Pretty Woman that the Julia Roberts character has attained the highest pinnacle of female happiness by being lifted from her life as a public prostitute in order to become the private prostitute of a wealthy man -- all are ethical decisions.
Whenever we propose a theory of "oughtness" about how to live and a line of reasoning about how to achieve life's different "goods," we are engaging in ethical criticism. But since the various arguments about the various goods and their status are not self-ranking, we are forced to rank them ourselves. We must always challenge one set of goods invested with the power to work on their own. We must make the case, both in terms of the coherence of the theory and the moral reasoning themselves. Such argumentations is nothing short of a compressed way of respecting others as rational beings. One way we demonstrate that respect is by assisting others, at the same time we rely on their assistance, to become more fully possessed of the fundamental human powers of sociability, language, imagination, and ethical reasoning that we all share.
"Ethical Criticism: What it is and Why it Matters" by Marshall Gregory.
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Yeah, yeah, I need new material. These are just too good to pass up, though.
Bush Thinks Mandate is a Gay Porn Magazine from Ted Rall's blog,
and Bush Unlikely to Keep All Promises from the AP.
... in other news, I've been making myself (literally) remain at school at my meager cubicle in order to get some headway on my thesis. So far, I've restructured the daunting second chapter and I'm not as terrified to go meet with my advisor this afternoon. In fact, I feel -- dare I say -- prepared?
I'm just feeling like the time is FLYING by for me. This weekend is going to be crazy packed. Tomorrow I'm throwing a lingerie shower for her and we're expecting around 20 people in our smallish house. It should be fun, but it's a little stressful trying to plan how I'm going to feed and entertain these people. Then again, we'll be surrounded by lacey underwear and grandmothers, so that should be entertainment in itself.
It's also November already! Before I know it, it's going to be xmas -- and then the start of a whole other year. Exciting, but daunting at the same time.
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I suppose there is a bright side to having the miserable failure back in office -- Jon Stewart and the Daily Show.
Tonight they did a bit on the President's press conference today -- it was at once hilarious AND extremely scary, watching the arrogance of the 43rd president. Keep an eye out on the website for the clip. Throughout the conference, Bush is spouting on about his "mandate" and his new "one-question" rule he's hoping to enforce in future press conferences. What. a. jerk. Considering he won by a little over 3 million votes -- hmmm, there's over 300 million US citizens -- so he's bragging about a 1% mandate?
2008, I'm going to be one candidating fool for whoever's on the Dem ticket.
Here's some midnight reading material for you: The Rhetoric of Bush's "War" on Terror -- from the inaugural issue the K.B. Journal (as in Kenneth Burke Journal -- the godfather of rhetoric himself!).
The abstract: George W. Bush is a Burkean devil of rhetorical seduction. His demagoguery in the service of empire masquerades as a test of Christian faith and of faith in a Christian man, calling on Americans to make their nation right with God by exterminating an international devil. His "war" is a bastardization of religious thought akin to Hitler's "Battle." Understanding what these two disquieting discourses hold in common helps to identify a difference that is crucial to finding America?s democratic voice.
You're right, Matt. I am a political junky. And a pretty sad and pissed off one, at that.
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I was able to hang out with some really cute little people tonight. One of them made me a picture, even. Hanging out with them helped me take my mind off the state of my country, with its megalomaniac leader now installed for another four years. More on that in a bit.
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If there's a child on the south side of Chicago who can't read, that matters to me, even if it's not my child. If there's a senior citizen somewhere who can't pay for her prescription and has to choose between medicine and the rent, that makes my life poorer, even if it's not my grandmother. If there's an Arab American family being rounded up without benefit of an attorney or due process, that threatens my civil liberties. It's that fundamental belief — I am my brother's keeper, I am my sister's keeper — that makes this country work. It's what allows us to pursue our individual dreams, yet still come together as a single American family. "E pluribus unum." Out of many, one. Yet even as we speak, there are those who are preparing to divide us, the spin masters and negative ad peddlers who embrace the politics of anything goes. Well, I say to them tonight, there's not a liberal America and a conservative America — there's the United States of America. There's not a black America and white America and Latino America and Asian America; there's the United States of America. The pundits like to slice-and-dice our country into Red States and Blue States; Red States for Republicans, Blue States for Democrats. But I've got news for them, too. We worship an awesome God in the Blue States, and we don't like federal agents poking around our libraries in the Red States. We coach Little League in the Blue States and have gay friends in the Red States. There are patriots who opposed the war in Iraq and patriots who supported it. We are one people, all of us pledging allegiance to the stars and stripes, all of us defending the United States of America. -- Senator-elect Barack Obama
Now that sounds presidential.
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I think I may self-impose a political posting fast -- mainly because I think I've exhausted the topic over the last couple of days/weeks/months. I can already hear some people breathing a sigh of relief.
Someone mentioned to me that the latest issue of bitch magazine had both a feature on Refuel biblezine and an article on religious webloggers (thanks, Alexis, for the tip!). I've read several issues of this magazine, so it didn't take much to convince me to head over to the bookstore and pick up a copy.
The bit on Refuel was good, and it pointed me in the direction of another article the magazine did, on Revolve. But I particularly liked the article they had on "godbloggers" called "Blog is my co-pilot: The rise of religion online" by Rachel Barenblat.
Some good bits from the article:
The realm of godblogs feels surprisingly like my sweet little New England town -- if random conversations in my town included discussing Leviticus with a minister and a Quaker half-Jews, or trading prayer techniques across denominational lines. The first time I got hate e-mail (in response to a post supporting the right of gays and lesbians to marry), I was furious -- it was as though someone had come to my tea party and thrown a drink in my face. Some days, the blog seems like a pulpit with an unresponsive audience; other days it's more like a theology powwow in a collegiate dining hall, where somebody's always pulling up a chair to join in.
And while blogs' interactivity sometimes facilitates flame wars, it also enables fascinating friendships. Most godbloggers report having befriended other bloggers or readers -- and those ties inevitably stretch beyond faith and geographical boundaries.
Still, the self-consciousness and self-reflexiveness of the larger blogosphere makes it worth asking whether our forums are connecting us in a meaningful way, or whether we're simply shouting past each other about our various spiritual worlds. Most likely, it's both.
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The bonds that form across orthodoxies and faiths may simply testify to a basic dissatisfaction with public discourse about religion. Given mainstream reportage in the United States, it's easy to conflate "religious" with "fundamentalist." The Passion of the Christ, the Federal Marriage Amendment, the usage of "under God" in the Pledge of allegiance, and the question of whether or not John Kerry deserves Communion all got major ink this year, but for the most part the media didn't address the broader religious themes at the root of these topics.
Where media coverage often reduces discussions of religion to a battle between wild-eyed fundies and atheist culturalists, godbloggers live to show gradations instead of stark dichotomies. Most of the godbloggers I read don't fit the mainstream mold: We cherish our sacred texts, but roll our eyes at posting the Ten Commandments in schools. We blog our all night Easter and Shavuot and Laylat ul-Qadr vigils, but scoff at the televised National Day of Prayer.
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True, pixels are no substitute for genuine encounters, but my religion places a premium on dialogue and text. Godbloggers are not only real, but, in a time when religion is treated more as a scapegoat than a source of strength, we're contemplating our faith and our place in the world, speaking up about what we think matters, and, when we're lucky, truly connecting with other human beings.
I know exactly what she means. The author's website is here.
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Ooooh, I have something new to look forward to! Ang and Marc bought me tickets to see Les Miserables in November as part of my late birthday/wedding/xmas present.
I. can't. wait.
When I was in high school, I read the complete UNABRIDGED Hugo novel. Yes, I was a geek even back then. Experiencing that book was a highlight I can still recall -- and yes, I know all the songs in the musical -- down to the subtle differences between the London and Broadway recordings.
My sister and I had the parts of the duet "Confrontation" down PAT. She was Javert, I was Valjean. I still sing through the whole play on long road trips by myself.
Anyway, I'm really looking forward to it. I'm going to bone up on my song repertoire before November 27th.
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Indeed it has.
This week I read an old editorial by William F. Buckley, Jr. In it, he refers to the "irredentist hoardes" when referring to some of his detractors. I like that phrase, and think I'll use it when I'm referring to Bush supporters.
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By the way, I wouldn't recommend teaching a class on less than 2 hours sleep. I already haven't been sleeping well this week to begin with -- and I'm even more tired thinking about my last few days. I was at school working for 11 hours yesterday. I came home to watch exhausting news coverage, and I got to bed after 5, to be up again at 7.
So, needless to say, I had difficulty "finding my words" this morning. It could have been a lot worse -- and it could have been a lot better.
Kerry is speaking in 40 minutes, Bush in 2 and a half. I may try to stay up to hear Kerry, before reclusing myself to my soft bed for a couple of four hours' nap.
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So much for counting every vote. I'm disappointed in you for giving up -- and in my country, for either being duped or being too lazy to get out the vote. I guess it's now a matter of wait and see, from this point on. Wait and see how many more billions and trillions we can go into deficit ... how many more countries we can preemptively invade on false intelligence ... how many more freedoms we can give up in search of a false security ... how many ways we can evoke God as a rationalization for our actions ... how many more innocent civilians we mow over in search of terrorists ... I could go on, but it only makes me more depressed.
I had two realizations yesterday:
1. The more liberal I am, the more I am intolerant I'm finding myself. Let me explain. I don't mean intolerant in the Republican/conservative sense of the word -- as in denying people a government sanctioned relationship. I mean that I'm finding a hard time understanding how anyone can literally sign their name behind this man and his neo-con cronies. There's a whole variety of reasons -- ranging from killing an estimated 100,000 more Iraqi civilians in the last 18 months (more than would have died under the old regime) to supporting a President who specializes, and builds his platform upon, alienating our country from a relationship with the rest of the world. There's more reasons, but I'm too sleep deprived to list 'em now. You can bet I won't stop holding my president even more accountible from now on.
2. The other realization was actually inspired by my grad class yesterday. Here's the thought, and I want to make sure to explain what it means -- because you may read it as arrogant, and it's not meant to be. Sometimes I feel like my rhetorical awareness makes it difficult to live in the world. I'm not trying to raise myself up to some heightened level -- but I think it's a true statement. I'm not able to buy things at surface level or believe things without investigating them until I'm satisfied. Ignorance truly can be bliss -- or at least appear to be. Knowledge can be a burden, and it leaves you feeling really bitter when your candidate loses ... not to mention terrified at the thought of another 4 years of "compassionate conservatism."
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Still awake -- and about halfway through my lesson for tomorrow, no sign of an end to the Presidential Election yet.
This is so much more interesting to me this year, compared to 4 years ago. That's probably because I have more of a vested interest in who's leading my country for the next 4 years.
O - hi - O! Here's the deal, as of 3:15AM the day after the election. About 99% of the precincts have reported, and Bush is ahead by a little more than 145,000 votes. The wildcard in Ohio are these "provisional" votes that have yet to be counted. Estimated provisional ballots range from 95,000 (according to the optimistic Republicans) to 200,000 (a la one sleepy Tom Brokaw).
It'll take 10 days before they even start counting these ballots. Now before any Repubs jump down my throat, in Ohio's 2000 election, out of the 100,000 provisional ballots cast -- 90% were valid. Some of these people in Ohio casting these ballots were standing in line to vote for over 6 hours.
Kerry and Edwards want these ballots counted -- or at this point, they want to at least consider having these ballots count in the election. Bush and his cronies, on the other hand, are spouting to the media that a concession is not necessary for them to declare victory and that Kerry is acting "unrealistic." Apparently they're not willing to wait a few hours to have every vote count. Not surprising, while a little disheartening.
So another election night draws to a close, and as the sun rises -- I'm without a President, again. Being the terminal idealist that I am, I'm hoping that Kerry wins a few other states so that he'll be able to pull it through in the end (with Ohio). If he doesn't win -- well, at least Bush didn't win this election without one hell of a fight. And he'll be inheriting a mess of his own making, complete with a country half of which wants him OUT.
EDIT: Well, good for NBC. Brokaw just said that they're not going to bow to White House pressure and declare a winner of the race while Kerry is still contesting Ohio. Guess that means poor George missed his 9:30 bedtime for nothing -- No victory soup speech for you!
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Overheard tonight while crossing my eyes at political coverage:
her: What to do about the fundamentalists..?
me: maybe the rapture will come soon, so they'll go away!
her: LOL
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Fight fight fight.
I'm better. Still upset, but I have a feeling that this is going to rile me up even more.
So watch out.
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Dejected. Deflated. Despondent.
Hooray for fear tactics! Now serving Americans since 9-11-2001, and counting.
I'm in shock, literally. I'm also very pissed off, and I'm asking those of you who were rooting for Bush to be gracious, otherwise you will NOT be welcome here. I'm in a deleting type of mood for tacky, anonymous comments tonight. Hell, if my President can be a bastard for another 4 years, so can I.
I cannot believe Bush won. Cannot. believe.
I'm terrified.
Not only is he in charge of the Executive branch, but there's majorities in the House and Senate now. With 3-4 justices retiring within the next term (possibly) -- I'm picturing an even more police state than there is now.
But it's fear that won this election -- it's the gift that keep on giving. Found not only in most evangelical faiths, but now in a democratic government near you!
UPDATE: Well. Ohio could still be up in the air. Who knows?
I was watching CBC earlier, and they made an interesting point. If, God-forbid, Bush should win this election in both the popular and electoral votes -- he has no real reason to work to bring together the people who elected him and those who voted against him. Just think, if he can be the bastard he was for the last four years -- when he wasn't ever officially ELECTED and without a mandate -- just think of how he'll respond when he thinks he has the majority of Americans behind him.
...anyway, I'm *supposed* to be teaching a lesson on extemporaneous speaking tomorrow at 8:30AM. I suppose I should finish outlining what I want to say. Somehow I doubt I'll be sleeping anytime soon.
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Thanks to everyone who's called or emailed me to ask me about my dad. I called a couple hours ago, and everything's fine. He was able to walk to the car after the surgery, isn't on too many painkillers, and is safe and sound in his bed by now. One load off my mind.
That said, I'm pulling my hair out watching this election!! Argh. I just don't have the heart to post too much, as I'm going up and down on this rollercoaster. Jeff somehow convinced me to post on his blog as a guestblogger. He's doing a much better job staying on top of things, I'm getting a little more despondent as the night continues. Head on over to his blog for election thoughts.
I'll be back here in a bit.
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Today's the day!
It's almost hard for me to believe that after the months and months of campaigning, we'll (theoretically) have a president-elect tonight! Wow.
My dad is having some outpatient surgery today in Virginia. Being the good citizen he is, he's voting before going into the hospital. Anyway, it's a little extra stress for me to think about as I'm worrying about today. If you think about it, send good thoughts/mojo/prayers his way.
Go Daddy go. (and as always, go Kerry go!)
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Marc and Ang
Originally uploaded by Becky B.. This afternoon I took engagement photos of two of my favorite people on the planet. They didn't turn out all that bad, considering I was the one behind the camera -- in addition to standing on the slats of the train bridge!
More pictures here and here.
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Part of an email from a concerned reader, today:
I also believe the blog you have created has been an additional tool Satan has used to confuse you even more, not b/c you can put your thoughts somewhere (you can do that in a personal diary), but b/c people can say whatever they want on there, people who can confuse you, condemn you, or just make you angry. Do I believe in freedom of speech? Yes, most definitely, but I'm not going to give Satan any chance to confuse me or cause me to doubt God, so I just focus on prayer and His Word and I find the answers there. The same would happen if I delved into Satanism or witchcraft. I don't give Satan any chance to have a foothold on me in looking in the wrong places where he can easily overtake me and change my life forever. He causes people to commit suicide and murder. I mean, people have choices, but they choose death when he makes it look better than life. He's crafty and we have to constantly putting on God's Armour (Eph. 6) using our Sword, the Word as our weapon, our only weapon of defense b/c it's enough. There's a couple of things wrong in this email. Yet before I cover these errors, I just want to say that I'm not posting this to pinpoint the person who is misreading me and my situation in order to deliberately embarrass or mock them. I'm more concerned with the sentiments expressed within it -- and I think these need to be addressed.
For one, I find it ironically hilarious that this little piece of webspace could be considered a "tool of Satan." For one, I don't imagine Satan as an actual person, lurking behind my living room couch waiting to pounce on me and my political and personal rantings. For another thing, this website has only helped me on my journey to figuring things out in my life -- from my political leanings (yes, at one point I was a Bush-supporter, believe it or not -- it's archived!) to questions I have about my graduate school experience to other important issues in my life.
Which also brings me to a popular evangelical idea of Satan acting as this omnipresent force who is out there to make the lives of Christians a literal hell. I think that's giving a little too much credit to any type of dark force that's out in the world. Yes, I do believe that evil exists -- and I think that there's a type of supernatural force involved with it, too -- but I don't think he's got a personal vendetta against certain people and actively forces them to make bad choices or acts against them in forcibly tangible ways. I'm SO tired of people blaming the "powers of Satan" for bad decisions they've made in their lives -- and for not taking their own accountibility for their wrong actions. Pet peeve #1.
But back to the email, I also think the assessment of reader comments is completely off. I enjoy hearing people give me input on the various things I post here. This weblog does act as a personal diary -- of sorts -- for me. Granted, I don't blog everything in my life. Somehow I doubt you'd want to hear about what I ate for breakfast -- and of course there's just some aspects of my life that never should be published.
That said, I've learned from the various things my readers have said. I've made certain friendships through this space, and I've been exposed to views that I may not have considered -- in my pigheaded liberal-mindedness. :)
So if you want to be critical of me -- go ahead. But first make sure you've earned the right, in terms of our friendship, in order to say the things you'd like to say. If you're only going to correct me because you're feeling "burdened by God" or think I'm another soul to add to your "saved" list -- you're just wasting your time in your correspondence. Also make sure that you actually know about the claims you're going to make about the condition of my soul and/or my relationship with God. Pet peeve #2.
Thank you and good night.
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Wisconsin supporters of John Kerry and John Edwards had an extra reason to cheer the Packers victory over the Redskins [this Sunday]: over the past 17 presidential elections, the outcome of the Redskins' final home game has determined the outcome of the election. According to history, if the Redskins win, the incumbent president remains in office. If they lose, the challenger wins.
(link)
Yeah, it's superstitious, but I'll take any and all good omens at this point! (not to mention to a lovely Kerry 298, Bush 231 electoral college graphic to my left)
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Two more reasons why I love my field:
- "Our politics seems at times a public nightmare privately dreamed"
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- "The quest for identity is the modern pilgrimage. And we look to one another for hints as to whom we should become. Perhaps these reflections do not apply to everyone, but they do apply to the persuasible, and that makes them germane to rhetoric."
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I'm tired of arguing.
Whether it's defending my disdainful stance on the whole mega-church movement, to sticking up for John Kerry over George Bush as the better candidate, to simply attempting to persuade someone away from a negative view of a particular movie I enjoy -- I'm just tired of being so damn contrary all the time.
I wish I could just not let little things bother me to the point of me having to speak up about them. Lately it seems like I'm in a constant state of argumentation -- and I can just feel myself either not being as articulate as I usually am, or getting more worked up than usual. It's easy to blame stress, lack of good sleep, or a close election on my short fuse -- but I wonder if there is something more than that to blame.
This past week, someone told me that it would be better to "put aside your intellect" in order to more fully appreciate something. Of course, this was told to me in a spiritual type of context, but I wonder how true this statement really is in that and other areas of my life.
It's hard always having to think things through when I'm analyzing something. It would be so much easier for me to just smile and accept whatever things are thrown my way. I could be like so many other Americans right now who are willing to implicitly trust their President and not question his motives for going to war and "spreading freedom." I could simply become another faceless member in a church somewhere, and go every week, swallowing all these doubts and questions I have about different nuances of faith. Smile and nod. Nod and smile. Nothing to get worked up over here, move along.
Maybe I'm upset because lately I'm finding myself becoming tired when I'm in the midst of defending a position. Tired, weary, frustrated -- take your pick. I'm not sure why that is or why I feel it necessary to explain myself or my position to someone else.
But who am I kidding? I'm never going to lose this argumentative streak -- despite one Bible's admonishment of "Revolve girls are not argumentative." I'm not going to stop speaking my mind, no matter how frustrated I feel in fighting lost causes. But that doesn't mean this nagging feeling is going to stop, though.
At this point I just need some time to be quiet -- but my life right now is just too busy to offer me any type of rest at this point. It's already November!
Besides, how long do you think I could keep a monastic vow of silence?
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Thanks to Marc's skillful tracing and cutting out abilities (along with Ang's photography skillz), please observe our 2004 festive jack-o'lantern. Oh and thanks to the Brothers Chaps as well!
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